Everyone, at some point in their lives, have been hurt by someone they trust.
Now when this happens the usually response is either, “why would you do that?” Or “naw its cool man.” Polar opposites i know. I’m more of the first one, but i do seem to put myself out there more so i should be ready for more hurt than not. When someone breaks your trust it can be a really hard thing to deal with, and even harder thing to trust again. On the other hand when you break someone’s trust you usually just say “I’m sorry it won’t happen again.” but they always have a way of bringing it up when you want something. When making fiends, one of the key moments in the friendship is when you realize you can trust them, and you get that weird smile on your face because now you can say that one secret you’ve been dying to tell since you heard it.
Anyways, when trust is broken that’s a horrible thing, whether its you saying you’re going somewhere to your parents and you end up going to a different place, or its cheating on a test, you can’t just expect people to go from 0 to 100 the next time you do the same thing. So when you say you’re going to Jimmy’s house for real real this time, your parents might not let you go, and you have to accept that. Same goes for when your trust is broken. That person is no longer on the top of your list, and you’re not running to tell them all your secrets, but after time you learn to trust again and realize everyone makes mistakes.
Scream, shout, and let it all out. It’s tough to keep in feelings that only seem to eat your insides away. It’s a terrible feeling, and you’d do anything to get rid of it. Throw those nasty feelings into the flames and watch it wither away into ashes. What’s stopping you? Oh wait, you were told to “control yourself”, “take a deep breath”, “take a step back”. Still, you do exactly what they tell you to do but your clenched fists maintain its position and heat in great measures is taken in and out of your nostrils. The last thing you want to do is to keep yourself composed. Everything around you takes on the disguise of punching bags and your initial reaction is to give blows here and there. They just don’t understand what I’m going through. It’s easier said than done. They don’t realize how much easier it is. If it’s unbearable, don’t bottle it up inside. Do what you can to bring yourself to normal (what’s normal?) state. Let it all out at the most you can afford given where you’re at.
If you’re at school- let your thoughts take on the form of words. Go to the restroom and splash water on your face and let the water drip down your face for a couple or so seconds before wiping your face down. Hold your breath; it’ll force you to take deep breathes in and out.
If you’re at home- let your imagination run wild. However, do so with the safety of you, your house, and others. Take your pillow and start hitting your bed with it as hard as you can repeatedly. Go to your garage and scream til your lungs run out of air. Take a walk. You’ll thank mother nature later for its calming effects.
Wherever you are, it’s possible to let your anger run wild and free. Take advantage of what’s around you. You’ll be surprised what you can do with the resources around you. Next time those horrible feelings come out, give them a piece of your mind. Whatever battle you may be battling, just know that you’re not alone 🙂
Good kid, mad city
Between being nice and being a people pleaser, there’s a difference. You can have an opinion of your own and still be considered as nice person. Whereas a people pleaser, there’s only a one way street- believing in other people’s beliefs. Of course, your own personality plays a big factor in where you lie. Those who aren’t as sensitive and independent find it easier to be themselves without the reliance of others, while those who are sensitive and care about other people’s opinions can easily become a follower.
Truth be told, I’m a people pleaser. I care about what others think about me and I let their opinions define me. Along the way, people would easily take advantage of me and saying no only became harder and harder to say. I found it harder to be myself and it got to the point where I no longer knew who I was. You find yourself looking for acceptance but instead, you receive a stab in the back.
Oh you’re a people pleaser? I don’t think so.
I know people are who are nice but they still have an opinion of their own. My friend, Chris, is an incredibly sweet guy and can get along with anyone. He can spark up a conversation with you with no gaps in between. Not only that, but he’s not afraid to go against other people’s opinions for the sake of his own opinion. For instance, when it comes to people with authority, how many of us would dare go against their word? That leaves us with only the delinquents and Chris. I remember how Chris told me a story of how during his basketball game, his coach took him out to address what he was doing wrong and told him an alternative way to run the play. Instead of leaving it at just that, Chris argued against his coach and reasoned that his coach’s statement was contradictory.That’s only one of the many occurrences where he got head to head with his coach. In the end of the season when the awards banquet came, Chris won the coach’s award.
If you were to choose between the two, which one would you want to be?
I was so used to having you around in my life all the time and now you’re no where to be seen. Life seemed content; I had no worries. My only worry for the day would be, “What’s for dinner?” Now, I rarely see you come home anymore and when I do you’re usually with someone else. All of this for one job? Is it really worth it? We have food on the table, financially stable, and most importantly, we had a family. Now, there’s always someone else living in our house and when that person is gone a new one comes along. I never really understood why that was and I don’t think I ever will. Home should be viewed as “Home sweet home”; it shouldn’t be an unbearable place. It should be one’s sanctuary; a place of privacy. The house was already crowded enough as it is with two families; an extra person really does make a difference. Especially if that person is constantly complaining and making salty, oily food that is better left uneaten. It was just fine the way it was before. If it’s because you’re lonely, you have your kids to turn to. Now I only see you for a brief moment in the morning. After that, I don’t know when you come home because by then, I’m usually asleep. I wouldn’t mind as much if I wasn’t an only child, but with a younger sibling there’s bound to be some damage. You’re so oblivious to what’s going on and it leaves everlasting scars that I want so badly to heal. You wouldn’t hesitate to fix a friend’s drama that can be fixed by his/her own but when it comes to own children, you wouldn’t even turn your attention towards it. Even worse, you’re well aware of the problems at hand. You have to stop pointing fingers at us and be willing to address the issue and work it out. When we’re arguing, you can’t just veer off the subject when you realize that I do have a point. You have to reflect on the issue and do something about it. I know my younger sibling is not the trouble maker that you think she is. She’s only like that because she has no guidance to keep her in line. I know, it should be my duty to watch after her, but I can only do so much with conflicting schedules. I’m trying so hard, but I don’t even know if my efforts can save us. Where did you go?
Gee Gee Gee Gee Baby Baby Baby
So hopefully many of you listen to music because its a pretty awesome and powerful thing. But how many of you listen to music in a different language? From a different country? Well one type of music that has hit America really hard is Korean pop music, or Kpop. Now before you get out your pitch forks, you should really try it. I really only listen to one group from Korea and that’s Girls’ Generation.
Girls’s Gen. is a group of 9 young ladies (from left to right Taeyeon, Hyoyeon, Seohyun, Sooyoung,Yoona, Jessica, Tiffany, Sunny and Yuri) and they are one of the largest musical groups in the world. They have around Asia and have come over to the US for numerous interviews and guest appearances, as well as to preform during their world tour. They have won many awards, including one that is pretty amazing and that’s video of the year for Youtube. With their song “I Got A Boy” reaching over 80 million views, it was a well deserved award.
Girl’s Genration first made its way to America with their song Gee in 2009. Now they have fans all around the world and are a well loved and respected group. Now with their recent uprising with I Got A Boy and their newest song Mr.Mr. they have once again lit the flame in America for Kpopp
When listening to Kpop music, at least i have no idea what they’re saying, and to a point that can be better. When you don’t know what they’re saying, it leaves it open to interpenetration, plus is sounds better because you just automatically assume everything is better in a different language. At the very least what’s the harm in trying something new right? Here are some more songs by them and other groups. By the way, their music videos are ten times better than America’s and will always make you laugh (whether they’re trying to or not).
Girls Generation – Gee
Girls Generation – Mr.Mr
Girls Generation – Oh!
BIGBANG -Fantastic Baby
SHINee – Lucifer
(yes i totally stole the title from Grace Helbig)
So in my English class at school, we just started reading The Count of Monte Christo, and wow there are some characters in there.
The whole book is basically based around this guy, Edmond Dantes, and how he gets a new position as caption of a ship and is getting married soon to this women who a lot of other people seem to love. Basically everyone who is jealous of his new job and wife decides to plot against him and try to get him thrown in jail for a crime he didn’t commit. Really rude right? Well, i personally, am very excited to read and find out how everything plays out.
But the book has really made me think about this whole issue of jealousy. Especially in high school, everyone gets jealous about everything. Clothes, cars, shoes, grades, boyfriends, girlfriends, everything! People even get jealous if someone gets a piece of gum and they don’t. Why!? I mean really if you look back at what you have, why not spend your energy being grateful for what you have instead of wishing you had more. Now don’t worry, this isn’t going to turn into one of “those” rants, and i know its human nature to want more, but the next time you catch yourself wanting more, say what can you give?
Friends are everything.
I truly believe that friends are so essential to life and living as a human, that without the ability to make friends, we would all just not function. Some friends are fake, and i know that and they know that, and yet for some reason we want to stay with them? Maybe its just to feel like someone is there for you, or like you aren’t alone, but the fact is you can’t stay with them because its not a friendship, its a lie. Lately i myself have been reevaluating the friends i have in my life and wondering if they truly love me for who i am. It’s the hardest thing I’ve ever had to do, but i think it’s really helping. So i thought, why not give shutouts to those true friends today :)!
You have been my super smart friend that is always pushing me to do more than i think i’m able to do, and you help me every step of the way. You listen to all my stupid comments about pretty much everything and even though you’re like deaf out of one ear, you’re a better listener than half the people i know. You’re going to be an even more amazing person. SHOUTOUT to your innovation project! RECYCLE YOU GUYS ITS GOOD FOR THE ENVIRONMENT! LOOK FOR THOSE BOXES <3333
OMggggg sista sista. You are honestly the sister i wish i had (is that bad). I don’t know why people thing we are actually related, maybe because of the way we act with each other but you always abuse me and its really rude and you should actually stop. When you’re not physically abusing me (or mentally), you’re actually a really sweet person who i know is always looking out for me. I fear for the person who crosses me because you will beat them up 10x more than me. I think i was your first guy friend since you moved here and you are my oldest friend, so i guess that’s a good sign right 🙂 ❤ HAPPY HALF BIRTHDAY
Michelle (the other one)
The amount of inside jokes we have is kind of scary, like we can communicate with just hand motions and i think that’s pretty special. We have been in a total of 2 classes together, and that’s the most i’ve been with any of my friends SO CONGRATS YAY!!!! Thank you, honestly, for being there for those really low points of my life and being a shoulder to lean on, unconditionally loving me , i think you have made me cry from laughter more than anyone else i know, and lake Sebastian thanks you for its water supply. (might go blind). I love you <333
I’m really bad at this so i think i’ll stop there before i embarrass more people. Thanks for reading these sappy things, and go enjoy the company of your friends!