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Sadness Overcomes

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An accurate depiction of my current state.

Sitting.Waiting.Wishing. Wanting. Whenever things go wrong, I’m left doing just that. Rather than a quota, I consider it a routine. I don’t know how people mask the pain, or better yet act like the thing that hurt them the most never happened. Is that humanly possible??? Tell me your secret, because I’m in great need of it. It’s strange how it all comes into effect. You don’t realize how badly you’re hurt, until you start thinking about. It’s not until you dwell upon it that it finally comes up to you and hit you with a jarring effect that leaves reality feeling surreal. It’s in these times I oh so badly wished feelings didn’t exist. I envy the tin man for being emotionless, you don’t know what you’re wishing for my friend. When you’re hurt this bad, it’s hard to imagine a better outcome, a greater time. It all seems to be so far into the future that I feel like it’s never going to come. Those uplifting quotes I hear so much are mocking me rather than “uplifting”. It seems like they’re told by those who have never come across a bad day in their life; they seem to be to good to be true. Whenever people come across writing like these, they automatically assume that it’s depression. But it’s so much more than a misused label. Not only is it the story, but the perspective¬†through a person’s eyes. Although it may seem that life is rooted¬†in darkness, there’s one thing for sure: the littlest things are more appreciated. Despite whether you want to be happy or not, you find yourself smiling at something you would normally be annoyed of. That nuisance? It’s actually relieving. It’s in this inverse relationship, that the journey back to happiness can be sought. With that being said, instead of going against the current go with the flow and life with take care of the rest.

I know man, I know.

-Angie

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